“You're strong”
“You brave”
“You're an inspiration”
I hear this often.
Well, the closer I get to the day to go and to leave this place, stronger I feel my fear. Each event scheduled, seemed so far, that is happening now, give me a bigger yip.
It's like when you start to climb a ladder to go on a high roller coaster and no one asked you to do that.
While you climb, the air becomes thinner, you start to feel a different wind, you imagine yourself falling down fast, in a safe way, but still falling down.
You look down, and even if you keep going, one step at a time, you really hope that way will let you go back.
You try to repeat yourself what was so clear when you were still on the ground: you will have a lot of fun, you will enjoy and you will ask for another round.
But nothing helps right now, nothing makes sense. You shiver, you look back looking for ways out, but there aren't.
Luckily there are few "traps" you prepared in advance, expecting this moment.
No way to come back. You can even not accept this fear anymore, but you can't stop yourself now. You will thank me. You will like it.
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